Blogging again

I have decided to blog again. I do realise that this is more like an online secret diary. But no one reads it anyway. The reason why I've decided to blog again it because I'm finding myself wanting to say stuff - stuff that isn't particularly healthy nor nice about myself, without scaring my friends and family. And I want to say it often.

I've tried twitter but It just doesn't give enough space to write and I've also tried status updates in facebook, but to other peoples distress. So I'm back to this blog.

I think I just need to get thoughts down, make them coherent. Looking back on my older posts nothing much has changed, except that I'm older. I'm still lonely and for some nefarious reason Daniel is kind of back in my life after 2 years (see previous posting).

So basically the sum of these blogs I will write will amount to the same thing
1. being lonely
2. being depressed
3. not being wanted
4. not wanting to exist

I'm not so sure blogging will help.